Nothing is impossible for a willing heart.

A kind of memory has nothing to do wind moons
Find the letter in corner of drawer unintentionally, one I write, settle, plan, send, go out always cautious, in fact write to the letter read by oneself. I forget existence of it already, but it appear in me at the moment suddenly, have moved myself again

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Perhaps you have already forgotten this appellation, but I still remember. Perhaps you forget even my layman early ‘  Or painstaking for it)  ,That does not matter either.

But I can’t. Time passing can not be worn down my memory to the past event, miss further instead. Do not expect anything, does not want to continue anything, only miss, does not take the distracing thought.

Perhaps it is this lifetime of me in that time, because have you. The thing has not been already been the people now, separated for generation all of a sudden at that time at a distance.

The strongly fragrant spring thunder often has a connection with me, the money is beautiful to pass telephone a few times too. Know Chu and give birth to the child in autumn of dawn, know your graduate student has already graduated. Wang Zheng’s beautiful news is not quite clear, Zhang Lei loses contact too. France LUN work has already made no public appearances, the face has let early too in Tongzhou. Once went to Jinsha specially twice, went to look for the seal in the past. The wound on the ancient cypress has already become a fact gradually fuzzily, but can distinguish dimly still. Do not forget, stroke the coarse bark, the eyes have been already moist gradually, yes, do not forget, how to forget?

Thank you for giving me the most sweet memory. Because had you, my life was once excellent at least. I know you are who hates me, or I connect with the qualification hated by you do not have. Negligible if I connect with and is hated becoming a kind of excessive demand by you.

December 03, 2006

Write speech of wanting again as me, separate January when already, the calendar has been changed from 2006 into 2007 too. The happiness on New Year’s Day is dark and damp and unbroken to disappear in the rain idly to the limit small. What will do, after day day, just in waiting for the presence of Death in being busy tired out. Or have another world? Not known by us. Whether too or that is a place very beautiful, the paradise outside generation. We can until all one’s dreams come true in there, hope that can’t reach last lifetime can realize one by one. Then I can see you again. See you again, not much else, I do not extravagantly hope to keep with your feature with each other. Because you have your hopes, two people’s hope is that there can’t be the conflict.

See you again, what a beautiful thing. See you again, will not I have speeches in order to tell, there are a thousand speeches definitely in the heart, but can talk about from where? Seeing you again, I must cry quietly. How much years, day and night, face each other dimly among dream only, smile delicate and still gentle beautifully. By the bridge of normal school, in front of the open wide door, are all your lovely appearance.

Meet you again, your cold face in anger, meet you again, you transfer as stroking the sleeve to the temples, meet you again, you are chatting with a gang of people. You drink: “Where scoundrel! Friend, give I, wrestle four limbs disable all this, the five internal organs decrease all, let him turn one sexual impotence middle age into completely! ”

January 03, 2007

It is the new year, everything looks fresh and gay, seething with joy. The day that in fact can’t be more normal, was played up too much meaning artificially, at this hour, years are no longer from meaning one flows through accidentally as usual. It remind you whether you slow and slow old and feeble, look, loud one year seriously, thirty years of age.

How have you been, always such doubt flashes from the brain. Been remembering all the time you write on ever a letter, (sentimental and chilly and sad that that letter is interweaving everywhere, helpless and gratified, I have been collecting it all the time, you use that beautiful style of writing and sincere emotion, break me and cry a each, all the time until today) “I wear red dancing slippers, since a person is dancing,  “Then, in the dream, appear a each, dainty glasses small and exquisite nose thin thin lip foxy smile that closely question make labial angle of one side stick up in a pair of red dancing slippers you are dancing graceful dance slightly. Or dance with me, but you say with a smile that dance with wolf.

There is such a picture to me of one too, just you have not certainly danced either without wearing red dancing slippers, but sit on a small low stool, hold a book, smile at me in side head. Do not in fact smile at me either, but facing toward the camera, or make be facing toward the camera person behind, but that smile is cordiality, so lovely, today, after ten years, still appear before my eyes each time.

In ten years, in an instant, in ten years, the person’s life can last several ten years, but with all sorts of of yours, but like still before eyes, happened at yesterday such as being like. Want to come at this moment, like in the twinkling of an eye, never careful in ten years, went over. And only meet with you for several dozen days, I have not calculated carefully. During the decade in this, I remember each time, always have fun that can not be finished recalling, joyful, sad, regret, loved, that period of years, leave me long memory, miss. Compared with the first, so transient unexpectedly in ten years during that time. ” whether 12345 day, ten hundred ten million hundred million year, gather short to know long day ” ,I have ever talked about, it is really efficacious. (Perhaps is nothing but a sentence of impractical nonsense in your view, perhaps you pass and have these ten years than then much more tastefully in dozens of days, or you will say it is only a rice in a bowl of rice for you those dozens of days - -Or even rice is not, just a stone that will crack the bad tooth, you have already inserted out and thrown away, reject it from memory. But it is the importance like this to me, it is not the life later on that lacks the excellence, just real, very pure and very pure love, how many times are there in everybody’s life? So I want to say, thank you, clear shadow, no matter how are our circumstances now, no matter meet again, or  ,Do not say, in a word thank you.

A happy New Year to you, young and lovely forever.

February 27, 2007

It is spring, but like furthermore see the colding, there is big wind, even frozen.

Turn over already the good winter clothes hiding again to keep out the cold, seem to find out the once happiness for many years already covered with dust to one’s heart’s content. Do not know either whether you can receive this letter, even can’t affirm sending this letter.

So, will not say.

May you be happy.

May me smile.

Do not like  The ones that please pack up you are ambiguous
For a long time, do not all like very much being ” ambiguous ” This word, does not like others to modify I and others’ relation in this word either, because there are the feelings of the conditions at the lower levels of a kind of bottom, can’t see the sky and the sun furtively.

Because is ambiguous, may cause the unnecessary suspicious and resentful and misunderstanding. Ambiguous words, ambiguous message, ambiguous letter, ambiguous present, let people reverie in close succession all without exception. And with treating ambiguously long, such partly accepting and partly rejecting feeling that will be hard to extricate oneself, love, friendship, hope, win but friendship, reach the love.

Do not like chatting with the stranger on the network, because has had a chat more, will turn into one and open the pouring out of the heart, it is a bit longer, the ones that will be become between two people are ambiguous. Before the emotion is not clear, by hiding and throwing a stone to clear the road warmly, originally give no cause for much criticism. But if fear the responsibility of bearing, only hide and have enough and to spare warmly, the love is not talked about, that have brought up effete and sentimental writings in general with misty nihility, with people and own, have Yi He, it will be just the floating smoke and passing clouds at last too to be sadly beautiful and then. As being warm to hide experience to be warm to hide, two psychological quality really up to the mark people perform a psychological game just,

Because is lonely, hide warmly.

Two lovers who has parted for many years, if the connection among the chances, it is greeted and chatted with some ambiguous words and then, must know and let the bystander misunderstand and suspect, will let the lover around become uneasy and cardialgia. Certainly someone will explain, it doesn’t matter, just a greeting, it is not you that pester my silk floss. Greeting fine, like, get up, pack up all about everything ambiguous, including greeting.

If it is one that explain to other one, and end in failure finally. Then will keep the most original distance soon, or is far away from. Because a piece of ambiguous words, will let the party of the love fall into reverie once in a while, it is attentive to be and is have by the party and heart of the love, get the consolation of the emotion. But please understand, this is a all in vain game, because whether want to get consolation or not so simple a reason of a friend leave and others are ambiguous, such person is selfish and immature.

Love, clear love, vigorous love, honest and openhearted love, like, let warm to hide going away. Perhaps, like a bit, violate the morals and violate ethics, but open and more upright than the ones that hid warmly at least, joyfulness that came. Hide and is nothing but the coat with false one storey warmly, study carefully its essence, does not want to bear the responsible for loving actually. Warm people that hide, in one state of looking around, in order to continue, until foot ins and outs put the oil, sneak away. Warm to hide, make a return journey, open the floodgates wide for freedom, like, unable to take it seriously, can take it seriously either.

If love common people pursue is tacit understanding that have mutual affinity innocent playmates, the ones that shared weal and woe were accompanied, is together with the happiness of the hand old age. Love, true with hiding having nothing to do warmly, love is a kind of understanding, a kind of tolerance, a responsibility. Like, please pack up you warm to hide, don’t let warm to hide, shake eyes to spend you, heart to confuse you.